Forgotton? or Illusion?

Which is worse? To be far away and remembered? Or close by and forgotten?
This is the question upon my heart this chilly eve,
the howling wind seems to reflect my soul’s unease.

I have felt the pain of a dear one leaving for the own journey,
yet when I receive a call or word from them, I feel much glee.

The bond between us remains strong as time may so pass.
No matter how rare or little, I’d rather hear him than the brasses.
So I ask you again…

Which is worse? To be far away and remembered? Or close by and forgotten?
Alas oh my soul! Cease thy dark whispers!
Upon hearing it, my heart hides among the embers!

Another loved one I hold close is still here,
yet how come I see him acting so queer?

Aye, he works and is soon to be off
but is an excuse for him to act shutoff?

Always hidden away from us in his room,
the time spent with us, he no longer consumes
I ask you once more…

Which is worse? To be far away and remembered? Or close by and forgotten?
He has another family of a higher standard I say,
Taken under their wing, he wishes to follow and stay.

I cannot see him, the one I once knew!
My brother he is, true, but never this skew!

He hides! He lies! He’d rather see her face than mine!
Not our father or mother, he’s never with us to dine!
I implore you…

Which is worse? To be far away and remembered? Or close by and forgotten?
I feel like he’s forgotten us, the ones who truly love him.
I will not hide my emotions, my heart is quite grim.

Oh what can I do? His simple little sister.
He’s turned a deaf ear to us, no more banter.

Abba Father please, guide the both of us now,
Show us your truth and keep us close to thou.
Which is worse? To be far away and remembered? Or close by and forgotten?

2 thoughts on “Forgotton? or Illusion?

  1. The CreaDev says:

    Hmm… I can relate from times gone by. I would argue “far away and remembered” to be far better. Aside from all that, being separated from the very ones you love in both ways can be both tiring and painful. Give thanks for the friend whose bond is still strong though you are both far away. As for the other, maybe one day your friendship will be reconciled with the one who has forgotten you? None can know, but the Lord himself. One thing you can know about all this: If you are a child of God, he will use these trials for the good and sanctification of your soul, no matter the outcome of the trial. (And I say nothing here to diminish the difficulty of your trial.)

    God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
    Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way,
    though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam,
    though the mountains tremble at its swelling.
    Selah

    ~Psalm 46:1-3 (ESV)

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